"... Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth." 1 John 3:18


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Wednesday, July 11, 2012

I miss you

I think about you often, although we've never met.  I wonder where you are living, if you are hungry and happy and loved... I wonder if you are meant to be ours... and what our stories will be.  Mostly I just miss you. 

It's weird to go about our days, weeks and months preparing for you and thinking about you - not having any idea if or when you will come.  Sometimes I feel guilty like I should be doing more for you now - but all I can do is pray and trust that if you are my daughter you will find me and I will find you. 

Lincoln has been asking about you and often talks about things being as far away as AFRICA.  I think he very much wants to see the giant plane that will take mommy and daddy to meet you. 

Sometimes I wish I had not told the kids so soon about our hope to adopt.  How can they understand countries shut down, adoptions slow and just how unpredictable this process is. I have to remind myself this is like saying - lets try to have a baby - the rest is up to God.  It's not that we are adopting - we hope to adopt.  Ghana is undergoing changes and international adoption is unpredictable at best... So for anyone that wants an update... we are praying and hoping the Lord has a daughter in Ghana for us but I don't think I will know for sure until I kiss her goodnight and tuck her in across from her two crazy, excited brothers.  For the next year or so .. we wait - and pray.
Lilypie Waiting to adopt Ticker