55 days to go. I can't believe it. We are so ready to meet little Lincoln. I decided once it finally turns January and we are a month away, we can start putting together all the baby things and packing 'the bag' for the big day. I know it will be here before we know it.
Chris is still looking for a job but has some good leads for which we are really thankful. It would be great to have that off our plates before Linc gets here.
My nausea has come back full force now... I've already thrown up twice today and it's only 10am. I can't imagine how much better I'm going to feel once this baby arrives. I think being so sick throughout the pregnancy will make infant care very liberating. I won't complain one minute about being up all night I promise...
I can't help but think about what next Christmas is going to be like with an 11 month old crawling around the tree. It's going to be awesome!
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Monday, November 3, 2008
scary times
Chris got laid off today. I think it's a bunch of crap and he got screwed because he was the new guy down here. It's pretty disappointing because I know he's great and loves his job. Stupid construction industry. I feel terrible and don't know what to say to him. My sister's fiance got laid off as well. Bad day for the fam.
I keep reminding myself God is good... God is in control... and thanking Him for the baby blessing on the way.
Here's to hoping he can find something quickly in this tough job market.
I keep reminding myself God is good... God is in control... and thanking Him for the baby blessing on the way.
Here's to hoping he can find something quickly in this tough job market.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
My Grandfather...
My grandfather passed away on Sunday afternoon. He was 83. A cowboy who loved poetry, a man who loved to joke and laugh, a horse-charmer, believer, veteran and staunch Republican. I'll miss him. His obituary is linked below...
http://www.ustrotting.com/absolutenm/anmviewer.asp?a=29322&z=1
We leave for the funeral tomorrow night. I am getting sick, vomit when I get upset or ride too long in the car and am still battling morning sickness (though it's better). This will be the first funeral I ever attend and I'm not sure how I'll feel when I finally get there.
Please pray for my mom, my family and for me that my sickness doesn't get in the way of supporting my mom and remembering my grandfather this week.
http://www.ustrotting.com/absolutenm/anmviewer.asp?a=29322&z=1
We leave for the funeral tomorrow night. I am getting sick, vomit when I get upset or ride too long in the car and am still battling morning sickness (though it's better). This will be the first funeral I ever attend and I'm not sure how I'll feel when I finally get there.
Please pray for my mom, my family and for me that my sickness doesn't get in the way of supporting my mom and remembering my grandfather this week.
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Lincoln's Room
We've been spending some time decorating the baby room. We LOVE the farm theme.
Our grandparents both had farms growing up and we've had many of our best childhood memories on the farm so it worked well for us both.
Thursday, September 4, 2008
God is Amazing...
Today I saw what was the most amazing thing I have ever seen in my life. Our little baby boy growing inside my tummy. I've gone to Europe... seen beautiful sunsets, buildings, mountains, oceans... nothing compares to this. Nothing.
I couldn't help but marvel at how incredibly God designed His creation to work. Everyone says a baby is a miracle but when you see that little baby growing inside you and see the little heart beating away - the wonder of it all can take your breath away like nothing else. I can't thank God enough for allowing Chris and I to experience His creation and this little miracle in such a personal way.
I cried when the technician told us it was a boy. I really didn't care at all either way but I knew Christopher secretly has always dreamed of a little boy. When I looked at my husband's face and saw literally the most joy I have ever seen a human show... I couldn't help but cry.
What a good day. The baby looked great and seemed to be growing very healthy. We are ecstatic.
I couldn't help but marvel at how incredibly God designed His creation to work. Everyone says a baby is a miracle but when you see that little baby growing inside you and see the little heart beating away - the wonder of it all can take your breath away like nothing else. I can't thank God enough for allowing Chris and I to experience His creation and this little miracle in such a personal way.
I cried when the technician told us it was a boy. I really didn't care at all either way but I knew Christopher secretly has always dreamed of a little boy. When I looked at my husband's face and saw literally the most joy I have ever seen a human show... I couldn't help but cry.
What a good day. The baby looked great and seemed to be growing very healthy. We are ecstatic.
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Baby is growing like a champ
Another appt. today... heartbeat was 164. Doctor said... 'it's a girl' jokingly. Of course, this is a myth... but everyone seems to be leaning this way. I gained 7 pounds since the last appt which is good since I'm still puking - (today twice already)... it should be stopping soon I hope.
And... we find out the sex in 2 weeks. Yippee! Christopher is so freaking excited.
And... we find out the sex in 2 weeks. Yippee! Christopher is so freaking excited.
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Fill her up!
So... yday was a great day. We got to hear the baby's heartbeat with the doppler - a strong 160 which is perfect!
After the doctor visit I went to the hospital and got 3 liters of IV's and a shot of Zofran. I've been EXTREEMLY nauseous and unable to keep most of anything down. The Dr. said I was pretty dehydrated and let me tell you - it felt GREAT to get my fluids back to normal. Last night I felt better than I had in a month and was just giddy with a night off from the barfing and nausea. I know it sounds like a small achievement but honestly - just one night off was such a blessing.
Hopefully this medicine will help curb the morning sickness a bit. Praise God - 11+ weeks and the baby was doing great!
Also, we (well mostly I - chris is still on the fence) picked out some fav baby names...
Girl - Lillian Grace
Boy - Nathaniel Edward
I love them both!
After the doctor visit I went to the hospital and got 3 liters of IV's and a shot of Zofran. I've been EXTREEMLY nauseous and unable to keep most of anything down. The Dr. said I was pretty dehydrated and let me tell you - it felt GREAT to get my fluids back to normal. Last night I felt better than I had in a month and was just giddy with a night off from the barfing and nausea. I know it sounds like a small achievement but honestly - just one night off was such a blessing.
Hopefully this medicine will help curb the morning sickness a bit. Praise God - 11+ weeks and the baby was doing great!
Also, we (well mostly I - chris is still on the fence) picked out some fav baby names...
Girl - Lillian Grace
Boy - Nathaniel Edward
I love them both!
Thursday, June 26, 2008
I read this on my cousin's myspace today and felt it was so appropriate for my current situation:
"Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not; remember that what you have now was once among the things you hoped for.""
I'm so happy to finally be pregnant. It's taken us so long to get here. And yet, with all of my excitement is an incessant fear- that something, will go wrong and we'll be right back where we started. How selfish.
The Lord has blessed me with the answer to so many prayers. For now, I must have faith and be thankful for the place I'm in at this very second rather than thinking - I'll be happy when the baby is safe and born.
Happy pregnancy - here I come.
"Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not; remember that what you have now was once among the things you hoped for.""
I'm so happy to finally be pregnant. It's taken us so long to get here. And yet, with all of my excitement is an incessant fear- that something, will go wrong and we'll be right back where we started. How selfish.
The Lord has blessed me with the answer to so many prayers. For now, I must have faith and be thankful for the place I'm in at this very second rather than thinking - I'll be happy when the baby is safe and born.
Happy pregnancy - here I come.
Friday, June 20, 2008
Mysterious Ways
Everyone says the Lord works in mysterious ways. Well, now I believe it.
Sorry I haven't posted in a while. We've been 'on hold' with so many things in our life and I didn't know what to say.
Here it is.
The best and biggest news of all... is, I'm pregnant. Completely shocked and overjoyed. I can't help but think that at least for me and my husband this is what the Lord had planned for us all along. We learned and grew so much through our adoption struggles and I wouldn't be so thankful had we not spent a year in the 'valley'. I'm still a little nervous and praying everything continues to go well, but so far, so good.
I am also very thankful that we have begun the process of adoption. I have a deep desire to build our family through adoption and am so excited to see how the Lord will direct us in these next few months. We are still waiting to see if our agency can get us through the Embassy in DC but we may have to wait a few months to submit our dossier anyway so I can be confident the baby will be born before we travel. We may consider switching to another country as well and I'm using this time to research all options now that we won't be able to travel anywhere until next summer.
We are so excited and have so much to look forward to. For all of the families in line for Kazakhstan - I continue to pray things move for you and the children.
The Lord is good.
Sorry I haven't posted in a while. We've been 'on hold' with so many things in our life and I didn't know what to say.
Here it is.
The best and biggest news of all... is, I'm pregnant. Completely shocked and overjoyed. I can't help but think that at least for me and my husband this is what the Lord had planned for us all along. We learned and grew so much through our adoption struggles and I wouldn't be so thankful had we not spent a year in the 'valley'. I'm still a little nervous and praying everything continues to go well, but so far, so good.
I am also very thankful that we have begun the process of adoption. I have a deep desire to build our family through adoption and am so excited to see how the Lord will direct us in these next few months. We are still waiting to see if our agency can get us through the Embassy in DC but we may have to wait a few months to submit our dossier anyway so I can be confident the baby will be born before we travel. We may consider switching to another country as well and I'm using this time to research all options now that we won't be able to travel anywhere until next summer.
We are so excited and have so much to look forward to. For all of the families in line for Kazakhstan - I continue to pray things move for you and the children.
The Lord is good.
Monday, May 12, 2008
Where are you?
Where are you baby Carlberg? Are you in Kazakhstan? Are you in Russia? Are you inside me somewhere, waiting to be born? Are you in the United States?
I wish I knew where to find you. I'm tired of this hide and seek game we are playing. You can come out now.
I wish I knew where to find you. I'm tired of this hide and seek game we are playing. You can come out now.
Thursday, May 8, 2008
Am I a quitter?
Quitter. It's a terrible word in my family. You could be many things growing up, but a quitter, not possible. Well here I am, fighting for what is probably the most important thing I've ever done so far in my life, and I'm contemplating just that... quitting. Well at least, in a way.
My agency didn't get the info they needed for me to move forward with my dossier submission. Apparently the Joint Council has a meeting set up with the Kaz Embassy to discuss their lack of movement with the dossier processing and reluctance to set firm dossier requirements.
Honestly, I don't know how much more of this I can take. It seems like there is no end in sight except for folks saying that the timelines are getting longer and longer in Kaz. In addition, I don't know if I have the strength to go to another country at this point as it all seems so unpredictable right now. I'm considering perhaps switching altogether to a domestic adoption and eating the thousands we've already spent on Kaz. What a tough choice.
I know God must have a plan. We'll have a lot to think over these next few days.
My agency didn't get the info they needed for me to move forward with my dossier submission. Apparently the Joint Council has a meeting set up with the Kaz Embassy to discuss their lack of movement with the dossier processing and reluctance to set firm dossier requirements.
Honestly, I don't know how much more of this I can take. It seems like there is no end in sight except for folks saying that the timelines are getting longer and longer in Kaz. In addition, I don't know if I have the strength to go to another country at this point as it all seems so unpredictable right now. I'm considering perhaps switching altogether to a domestic adoption and eating the thousands we've already spent on Kaz. What a tough choice.
I know God must have a plan. We'll have a lot to think over these next few days.
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
More Delays
Kazakhstan apparently has a lot of holidays in May. When the Embassy opens for 3 days on may 4th, my agency is traveling their to try and get the approval they need to get our dossiers translated. If they do not receive this approval, this will probably be a dead end for us and a call to explore other options. Hopefully it won't come to that.
For the first time, I felt like my casemanager was really disappointed and discouraged today. She said it is the most difficult time in the Kazak program yet. I can't say I was encouraged... but at least I know it isn't always this hard.
For the first time, I felt like my casemanager was really disappointed and discouraged today. She said it is the most difficult time in the Kazak program yet. I can't say I was encouraged... but at least I know it isn't always this hard.
Friday, April 25, 2008
Dossier Delay Update
Ok... apparently the one approved Embassy translator needs to be issued an invitation to translate a dossier by the Consular before he can translate the dossier.
My dossier was translated by someone that is no longer approved by the Kazak Embassy. Now I have to wait for a letter of invitation to go to the translator...then get in line with the translator... have my dossier retranslated...before I can submit my dossier. Once again, I should have an update in one week on the status of this letter.
My dossier was translated by someone that is no longer approved by the Kazak Embassy. Now I have to wait for a letter of invitation to go to the translator...then get in line with the translator... have my dossier retranslated...before I can submit my dossier. Once again, I should have an update in one week on the status of this letter.
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Unbelievable
Apparently there are more issues that need to be resolved and negotiated with the translator before I can move forward in getting my dossier retranslated. My agency is working with several people to try to resolve these issues and should give me an update by the end of the week. This will of course, delay my submission further.
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Need to Retranslate
On Friday I received what I hope will be the last of my bad news. I need to retranslate my dossier. My agency has confirmed I can not move forward with my translator even though everything is ready to go. I can't imagine I'd hit any more brick walls in this thing.
So... Now I need to update my doctors licenses since it will take longer to resubmit and retranslate now. I'm hoping to get my dossier finally complete the first week of May. Almost 2 months after it was completed the first time. Let's hope this works.
Also, my heart goes out to any parents that had their dossiers returned because they were over 50. Apparently, Kaz is no longer accepting applications/processing dossiers for parents over 50. I'm truly sorry for you and can't imagine your sorrow.
So... Now I need to update my doctors licenses since it will take longer to resubmit and retranslate now. I'm hoping to get my dossier finally complete the first week of May. Almost 2 months after it was completed the first time. Let's hope this works.
Also, my heart goes out to any parents that had their dossiers returned because they were over 50. Apparently, Kaz is no longer accepting applications/processing dossiers for parents over 50. I'm truly sorry for you and can't imagine your sorrow.
Thursday, April 17, 2008
on the road again...
so I drove to raleigh again today with what I thought were the last of the documents I needed apostilled. Then, I got a phone call... I now need one more certified letter from the state dept. of education explaining that the state of NC doesn't require social workers that have a teaching certificate to have yearly licenses to practice. Hopefully, I'll get this letter in a few days... go back to raleigh... get it translated and then can finally send my dossier off.
I've thought I was done so many times already... but hopefully this is really it. This will be my fifth round of documents and I haven't even submitted my dossier yet. I'm ready for a break:)
Let's pray this letter arrives soon.
I've thought I was done so many times already... but hopefully this is really it. This will be my fifth round of documents and I haven't even submitted my dossier yet. I'm ready for a break:)
Let's pray this letter arrives soon.
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
rat race
So... we got the approved list of new dossier requirements today for the Embassy. I need to make 3 minor changes before resubmitting my documents. I'm traveling Raleigh (again) to get my docs apostilled on Friday...then they get translated... and I'll be good to go.
Other than, waiting for the agency to get me their info and waiting for the courier to send back my original dossier... then I can FINALLY resubmit. My goal is to have my dossier resubmitted by next Friday. We'll see. Here's to hoping.
Other than, waiting for the agency to get me their info and waiting for the courier to send back my original dossier... then I can FINALLY resubmit. My goal is to have my dossier resubmitted by next Friday. We'll see. Here's to hoping.
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Momentum PLEASE.
Ahh...this is all moving so slowly. My agency is so hesitant to resubmit our dossiers. I understand their caution but how long can we wait without doing ANYTHING? The Embassy has been reopened for a month and our dossiers are still sitting there.. getting outdated... going nowhere.
They are trying to give us the best chance of getting through without having to resubmit but at this point, I'm ready to be a 'guinea pig'... I just want don't want my dossier sitting there doing nothing going nowhere any more!
It's very frustrating having such a huge hold up in the US. You expect holdups overseas... I never expected it would be so hard to just get there. This process used to take a week and it's already set to take me probably 3 months...
Run little dossier run... all the way to Washington! Go!
They are trying to give us the best chance of getting through without having to resubmit but at this point, I'm ready to be a 'guinea pig'... I just want don't want my dossier sitting there doing nothing going nowhere any more!
It's very frustrating having such a huge hold up in the US. You expect holdups overseas... I never expected it would be so hard to just get there. This process used to take a week and it's already set to take me probably 3 months...
Run little dossier run... all the way to Washington! Go!
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
Thankful
Enough being sad because the adoption is not moving as fast as I have hoped. It's happy time. I have much to be thankful for... kick me when I start feeling glum:)
I am thankful that I have a God who cares about little children... and who is watching over my child now until I can meet them.
I am thankful that I have an amazing husband that I love dearly.
I am thankful that we starting this process of adoption so soon - and that eventually, we'll be able to meet our child.
I am thankful that I have a fantastic family that makes me laugh, encourages me and supports me in this journey.
I am thankful for all of the other families who are adopting right now too... some are so inspiring.
I am thankful for all of my blessings... for I have many.
I am thankful that I have a God who cares about little children... and who is watching over my child now until I can meet them.
I am thankful that I have an amazing husband that I love dearly.
I am thankful that we starting this process of adoption so soon - and that eventually, we'll be able to meet our child.
I am thankful that I have a fantastic family that makes me laugh, encourages me and supports me in this journey.
I am thankful for all of the other families who are adopting right now too... some are so inspiring.
I am thankful for all of my blessings... for I have many.
Monday, March 31, 2008
Updates and such
This week we have more documents to update. My agency doesn't want to submit the dossiers as is to the Embassy. The agency license is going to expire in April (these are issued yearly). We have to wait for updated licenses to arrive to insert into everyone's dossier. In addition, due to the delay some of my documents are getting old so I need to submit updated FBI fingerprints, marriage license, and my social worker license. I'm going to drive to Raleigh again on Wednesday to have these documents apostilled and retranslated.
My agency hopes to have all of our dossiers resubmitted to the Embassy the week of April 14th. After all these delays I'm so anxious to just at least get our dossier in line. However, the agency believes this will give us the best chance of not having our dossier rejected... so I'm trusting them.
My agency hopes to have all of our dossiers resubmitted to the Embassy the week of April 14th. After all these delays I'm so anxious to just at least get our dossier in line. However, the agency believes this will give us the best chance of not having our dossier rejected... so I'm trusting them.
Thursday, March 27, 2008
Wow...
After much soul searching, prayer and general franticness... Chris and I have decided to stay with Kazakhstan. We originally wanted to adopt a child as young as possible and that still remains a huge desire for us. We are willing to weather the ups and downs and Kazakhstan right now... knowing that the Lord is in control and will be our baby to us in His timing.
You'll notice I've deleted the posts on Russia. I don't want to look back or second guess our decision. That's why. This will not be an easy road... Kazakhstan is still in the process of reviewing dossiers and is predicting delays. No one knows for how long. Prayer is welcome. Thanks friends.
You'll notice I've deleted the posts on Russia. I don't want to look back or second guess our decision. That's why. This will not be an easy road... Kazakhstan is still in the process of reviewing dossiers and is predicting delays. No one knows for how long. Prayer is welcome. Thanks friends.
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
surprised...
Well, I have to admit... I've been really shocked by this whole experience... It's nothing like I expected. Everyone says adoption is unpredictable, but somehow, in the excitement of it all, I think adoptive parents misguide themselves into hoping their story will be different.
Every night I wake up in the middle of the night worried about the adoption. When I'm away from my computer I wonder if there is a devastating or an amazing email of news waiting for me. When I turn on the news I pray that the US isn't doing anything that would hurt the adoption or anger the foreign country. I'm starting to literally, worry myself sick...My whole world has changed and the baby isn't even here yet. I refuse to allow myself to decorate the baby room any further or buy any more baby things. I don't want them sitting there for a year unused if our adoption is delayed.
This is by far the absolute hardest thing I have ever done and we haven't even made the first trip yet... or dossier isn't even in country and I'm already spazzing. And I have great people supporting me.
If you are a PAP (potential adoptive parent)... you probably know EXACTLY how I feel. Worried if you'll have the money for the trip, worried you'll never get a referral, worried when you finally get home you'll loose the referral, worried you'll never be invited back for your referral... it's endless...
The Lord is in control. The Lord is in control. My GOD the God of the entire universe is in control - NOT ME!:)He knows when our baby will take its first breath... he knows when we will hold our little one for the first time... and that is it. I tell myself that every day.
For those of you thinking about adoption... in the process of adoption... or supporting those adopting... Keep up the good work. I am confident it will all be worth it in the end for each of us. Please be faithful in praying for each other and for Chris and I.
Every night I wake up in the middle of the night worried about the adoption. When I'm away from my computer I wonder if there is a devastating or an amazing email of news waiting for me. When I turn on the news I pray that the US isn't doing anything that would hurt the adoption or anger the foreign country. I'm starting to literally, worry myself sick...My whole world has changed and the baby isn't even here yet. I refuse to allow myself to decorate the baby room any further or buy any more baby things. I don't want them sitting there for a year unused if our adoption is delayed.
This is by far the absolute hardest thing I have ever done and we haven't even made the first trip yet... or dossier isn't even in country and I'm already spazzing. And I have great people supporting me.
If you are a PAP (potential adoptive parent)... you probably know EXACTLY how I feel. Worried if you'll have the money for the trip, worried you'll never get a referral, worried when you finally get home you'll loose the referral, worried you'll never be invited back for your referral... it's endless...
The Lord is in control. The Lord is in control. My GOD the God of the entire universe is in control - NOT ME!:)He knows when our baby will take its first breath... he knows when we will hold our little one for the first time... and that is it. I tell myself that every day.
For those of you thinking about adoption... in the process of adoption... or supporting those adopting... Keep up the good work. I am confident it will all be worth it in the end for each of us. Please be faithful in praying for each other and for Chris and I.
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Russia???
The DOS issued this stmt today:
March 19: "The Department of State has been informed that the Embassy of Kazakhstan is conducting a review of current procedures regarding intercounty adoptions. The Embassy will not process new adoption dossiers until that review is completed. We have offered to assist the Embassy with its efforts to ensure that adoptions from Kazakhstan to the United States are conducted in a transparent, serious and honest process. It is not known at this time how long this review will require."
On a radio show today about the status of Kazak adoptions my email question was the first answered... funny, though... I'm not sure I'll take the advice. Folks are staying stick with Kazakhstan that they'll come out of this...
At this point, I want predictability and don't think I can handle much more of an emotionally rollercoaster. My agency operates w/i 20 regions in Russia and is saying referrals are coming fast. The dossier is a beast to redo.. and I'll have to resubmit my USCIS govt form but my gut tells me it'll be quicker than waiting it out in Kazakhstan...
Apparently the Kazak govt wants to slow down adoptions permenantly...even if they don't want to forever halt the program... and I'm just worried about things...
We've got a call with the agency about Russia tomorrow... we'll see how things go.
March 19: "The Department of State has been informed that the Embassy of Kazakhstan is conducting a review of current procedures regarding intercounty adoptions. The Embassy will not process new adoption dossiers until that review is completed. We have offered to assist the Embassy with its efforts to ensure that adoptions from Kazakhstan to the United States are conducted in a transparent, serious and honest process. It is not known at this time how long this review will require."
On a radio show today about the status of Kazak adoptions my email question was the first answered... funny, though... I'm not sure I'll take the advice. Folks are staying stick with Kazakhstan that they'll come out of this...
At this point, I want predictability and don't think I can handle much more of an emotionally rollercoaster. My agency operates w/i 20 regions in Russia and is saying referrals are coming fast. The dossier is a beast to redo.. and I'll have to resubmit my USCIS govt form but my gut tells me it'll be quicker than waiting it out in Kazakhstan...
Apparently the Kazak govt wants to slow down adoptions permenantly...even if they don't want to forever halt the program... and I'm just worried about things...
We've got a call with the agency about Russia tomorrow... we'll see how things go.
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Prayer Request
Chris and I have a few things we'd like to ask everyone to pray for:
First, pray for the children in the Kazak orphanages. Pray that this slow down in the US causes more Kazak citizens to adopt and that they can find homes - even if they aren't in the US to waiting parents.
Secondly, please pray for Chris and I. This news has been very discouraging . We were REALLY excited about the potential of traveling to Kazakhstan in a few months. Now, the wait is indefinate. We are considering switching countries. This means more money financially and doesn't carry any guarantees either so it's a tough choice. If we switch countries we should be able to have a dossier in Russia within 4 months if we rush.
Thanks for your support. I know there is a reason for all of this and that God is in control. It still makes us sad.
First, pray for the children in the Kazak orphanages. Pray that this slow down in the US causes more Kazak citizens to adopt and that they can find homes - even if they aren't in the US to waiting parents.
Secondly, please pray for Chris and I. This news has been very discouraging . We were REALLY excited about the potential of traveling to Kazakhstan in a few months. Now, the wait is indefinate. We are considering switching countries. This means more money financially and doesn't carry any guarantees either so it's a tough choice. If we switch countries we should be able to have a dossier in Russia within 4 months if we rush.
Thanks for your support. I know there is a reason for all of this and that God is in control. It still makes us sad.
bad news...
Country Status
Kazakhstan is currently CLOSED to adoptions by US citizens.
March 17, 2008 -
Joint Council confirms the suspension of dossier processing by the Kazakhstan Embassy and Consulates pending the finalization of a review of adoption cases by the Kazakhstan government. The following represents our understanding of the suspension.
The suspension of dossier processing by the Kazakhstan Embassy/Consulate is effective immediately. Dossiers which have been processed and forwarded to Almaty will be permitted to continue through to finalization. Dossiers which have not yet been processed by the Embassy/Consulate will not be forwarded to Almaty and will remain at the Kazakhstan Embassy/Consulate pending the completion of the review noted above.
The Kazakhstan Embassy/Consulate will not accept new dossiers pending the completion of the review noted above. Joint Council hopes to meet with Kazakhstan officials soon and will continue to provide updates and information.
Kazakhstan is currently CLOSED to adoptions by US citizens.
March 17, 2008 -
Joint Council confirms the suspension of dossier processing by the Kazakhstan Embassy and Consulates pending the finalization of a review of adoption cases by the Kazakhstan government. The following represents our understanding of the suspension.
The suspension of dossier processing by the Kazakhstan Embassy/Consulate is effective immediately. Dossiers which have been processed and forwarded to Almaty will be permitted to continue through to finalization. Dossiers which have not yet been processed by the Embassy/Consulate will not be forwarded to Almaty and will remain at the Kazakhstan Embassy/Consulate pending the completion of the review noted above.
The Kazakhstan Embassy/Consulate will not accept new dossiers pending the completion of the review noted above. Joint Council hopes to meet with Kazakhstan officials soon and will continue to provide updates and information.
Friday, March 14, 2008
No News...
I called and emailed my agency today but didnt hear anything. Finally, I called the department of state - children services division and talked to someone that said they'd been having meetings with Kazakhstan all week and should have an 'official' update as to the adoption changes and requirements in Kazakhstan by next week.
I'm so anxious to hear anything. I think not knowing is worse than bad news almost.
I'm so anxious to hear anything. I think not knowing is worse than bad news almost.
Exactly where I am...
Waitby Russell Kelfer
Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;
Quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate . . .
And the Master so gently said, "Wait."
"Wait? You say wait?" my indignant reply.
Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!
Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?
By faith I have asked, and I'm claiming your Word.
My future and all to which I relate
Hangs in the balance, and you tell me to wait?
I'm needing a 'yes', a go-ahead sign,
Or even a 'no' to which I can resign.
You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe,
We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
And Lord I've been asking, and this is my cry:
I'm weary of asking! I need a reply.
Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate,
As my Master replied again, "Wait."
So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut,
And grumbled to God, "So, I'm waiting for what?"
He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine . . .
and He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run.
I could give all you seek and pleased you would be.
You'd have what you want, but you wouldn't know Me.
You'd not know the depth of my love for each saint.
You'd not know the power that I give to the faint.
You'd not learn to see through clouds of despair;
You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there.
You'd not know the joy of resting in Me
When darkness and silence are all you can see.
You'd never experience the fullness of love
When the peace of My spirit descends like a dove.
You would know that I give, and I save, for a start,
But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart.
The glow of my comfort late into the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight.
The depth that's beyond getting just what you ask
From an infinite God who makes what you have last.
You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that My grace is sufficient for thee.
Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true,
But, oh, the loss, if you missed what I'm doing in you.
"So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see
That the greatest of gifts is to truly know Me.
And though oft My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all is still . . . Wait."
Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;
Quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate . . .
And the Master so gently said, "Wait."
"Wait? You say wait?" my indignant reply.
Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!
Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?
By faith I have asked, and I'm claiming your Word.
My future and all to which I relate
Hangs in the balance, and you tell me to wait?
I'm needing a 'yes', a go-ahead sign,
Or even a 'no' to which I can resign.
You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe,
We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
And Lord I've been asking, and this is my cry:
I'm weary of asking! I need a reply.
Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate,
As my Master replied again, "Wait."
So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut,
And grumbled to God, "So, I'm waiting for what?"
He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine . . .
and He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run.
I could give all you seek and pleased you would be.
You'd have what you want, but you wouldn't know Me.
You'd not know the depth of my love for each saint.
You'd not know the power that I give to the faint.
You'd not learn to see through clouds of despair;
You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there.
You'd not know the joy of resting in Me
When darkness and silence are all you can see.
You'd never experience the fullness of love
When the peace of My spirit descends like a dove.
You would know that I give, and I save, for a start,
But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart.
The glow of my comfort late into the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight.
The depth that's beyond getting just what you ask
From an infinite God who makes what you have last.
You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that My grace is sufficient for thee.
Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true,
But, oh, the loss, if you missed what I'm doing in you.
"So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see
That the greatest of gifts is to truly know Me.
And though oft My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all is still . . . Wait."
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
crazy
People from other adoption agency's who used my translator have been telling me their entire dossier was rejected and effective immediately all translations must go through one approved translator.
So crazy - one translator for all translations... My agency is having a representative go their tomorrow and will provide updates then. I am afraid the rumors are true. Many people have emailed me and told me their dossiers have been kicked out of the Embassy.
I believe it will truly be a miracle if mine gets through tomorrow. Please pray. We have some hard decisions to make if we are rejected.
Sheila
So crazy - one translator for all translations... My agency is having a representative go their tomorrow and will provide updates then. I am afraid the rumors are true. Many people have emailed me and told me their dossiers have been kicked out of the Embassy.
I believe it will truly be a miracle if mine gets through tomorrow. Please pray. We have some hard decisions to make if we are rejected.
Sheila
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Rollercoaster
What a rollercoaster adoption is... I just read the Embassy is rejecting all dossiers with ANY documents older than 120 days. My FBI clearance is dated Oct. 29th so I'm screwed if that is true.
I'm so anxious. It's crazy how many things can go wrong. I guess I'll just have to wait to hear from the Embassy. I really hope I don't have to redo anything.
I'm so anxious. It's crazy how many things can go wrong. I guess I'll just have to wait to hear from the Embassy. I really hope I don't have to redo anything.
Saturday, March 8, 2008
There goes Lucky.........
At the dog track in Daytona, before every race a remote control rabbit 'Lucky' is released. The grey hounds race out of their stalls in a mad dash for the rabbit as the announcer shouts over the loud speaker as the race begins...'THERE GOES LUCKY'!
I couldn't help but hear those words as I packed up the last of my papers today... my race has officially begun!
I mailed my dossier off to the Kazakhstan Embassy today. If all my paperwork is correct and my adoption is final before my paperwork expires I won't have to do any more paperwork!!!!!!!!!!!!! So exciting! The dossier is officially out of my hands and has started on the race to Kazakhstan and eventually, the region where our baby will be. All in all, it was 174 pages. I started the adoption process October 8th and it's taken exactly 5 months to complete our paperwork so I'm really pumped to have it completed. I was so nervous reviewing my papers for a final time. Luckily mom was there to make sure I didn't rush and I actually checked everything thoroughly before sending on. Similar to proofing a paper you've spend a month typing... after a while it all starts to look the same.
Next week my agency is going to the Kazakhstan Embassy to try to get some of my papers processed. After I receive approval from the Embassy my dossier is sent to Kazakhstan!
Good day to celebrate in the Carlberg house. It's in the Lords hands now. I feel free already.
I couldn't help but hear those words as I packed up the last of my papers today... my race has officially begun!
I mailed my dossier off to the Kazakhstan Embassy today. If all my paperwork is correct and my adoption is final before my paperwork expires I won't have to do any more paperwork!!!!!!!!!!!!! So exciting! The dossier is officially out of my hands and has started on the race to Kazakhstan and eventually, the region where our baby will be. All in all, it was 174 pages. I started the adoption process October 8th and it's taken exactly 5 months to complete our paperwork so I'm really pumped to have it completed. I was so nervous reviewing my papers for a final time. Luckily mom was there to make sure I didn't rush and I actually checked everything thoroughly before sending on. Similar to proofing a paper you've spend a month typing... after a while it all starts to look the same.
Next week my agency is going to the Kazakhstan Embassy to try to get some of my papers processed. After I receive approval from the Embassy my dossier is sent to Kazakhstan!
Good day to celebrate in the Carlberg house. It's in the Lords hands now. I feel free already.
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
Adoption in 2008
http://www.rainbowkids.com/ArticleDetails.aspx?id=549
I keep talking about all the changes, etc. going on in International Adoption. Here's a good article about what's really going on.
I keep talking about all the changes, etc. going on in International Adoption. Here's a good article about what's really going on.
Back on the saddle again
This has been an interesting week. First I found out that my dossier translation was on hold. WHAT ON HOLD I thought... I've been working for five months to get to this point! I think that God most certainly had a hand in picking my case manager. See...she's adorable, I haven't met her but she reminds me of my beloved 'Grammy' and I just can't seem to get mad at her regardless of what she tells me. Perhaps it's the broken Russian English accent... who knows. I'm remarkably nice and patient with her in the midst of frustrating matters... for me, that's amazing.
Anyway, the good news is my translation is off hold and I should be receiving it by the end of the week. My agency is trying to push a bunch of dossiers through the Embassy in one big stack at once next week. I'm crossing my fingers that goes well. If not, it could mean significant delays before we even get to Kazakhstan.
Last night I couldn't sleep again. Adoption is not easy on the nerves of someone who likes to have control and plan her life out perfectly... I know it's a good lesson for me but lessons don't have to be enjoyable to be good:)
Anyway, the good news is my translation is off hold and I should be receiving it by the end of the week. My agency is trying to push a bunch of dossiers through the Embassy in one big stack at once next week. I'm crossing my fingers that goes well. If not, it could mean significant delays before we even get to Kazakhstan.
Last night I couldn't sleep again. Adoption is not easy on the nerves of someone who likes to have control and plan her life out perfectly... I know it's a good lesson for me but lessons don't have to be enjoyable to be good:)
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Translation Time
I slept well last night for the first night in a week. I was actually waking up having nightmares of incorrect documents and incomplete notaries. Ridiculous I know.
Yesterday mom and I drove back up to Raleigh to get my documents apostilled. I was so nervous they wouldn't be right this time either. Well, first, the notary for the homstudy signed 'ROE' instead of 'Rose' so that document didn't pass. Luckily it was the only document I had two originals for and the second was done correctly. Then, when we went to pick up the documents at 2:30 my Wachovia statement couldn't be authenticated because it was done in Virginia. We raced around Raleigh to a nearby Wachovia bank - I pleaded with the manager in a nervous frenzy to get me a notarized letter asap. I made her so nervous she had to redo the letter 4 separate times. Then, we raced back to the Secretary of State and I pleaded with the lady up front to do one letter on a rush so I didn't have to drive back to Charlotte incomplete for the third day in a row. She did it!
Needless to say, I am thankful, relieved and excited to have another piece of the puzzle in place. My documents arrived safely in Atlanta today for translation into Russian. This should take about 10 days. After that, they'll be returned for me to copy and send everything off to the Consulate in DC! (I hopefully won't have to see them again after this unless they expire).
Side note: I was feeling a little 'whoa is me' with all the frustration and hard work over the last 2 weeks. Then, my friend, Kelly had a baby girl yesterday. I decided I'd rather be pleading with the Secretary of State over paperwork then having contractions and it made me feel a little better:).
Yesterday mom and I drove back up to Raleigh to get my documents apostilled. I was so nervous they wouldn't be right this time either. Well, first, the notary for the homstudy signed 'ROE' instead of 'Rose' so that document didn't pass. Luckily it was the only document I had two originals for and the second was done correctly. Then, when we went to pick up the documents at 2:30 my Wachovia statement couldn't be authenticated because it was done in Virginia. We raced around Raleigh to a nearby Wachovia bank - I pleaded with the manager in a nervous frenzy to get me a notarized letter asap. I made her so nervous she had to redo the letter 4 separate times. Then, we raced back to the Secretary of State and I pleaded with the lady up front to do one letter on a rush so I didn't have to drive back to Charlotte incomplete for the third day in a row. She did it!
Needless to say, I am thankful, relieved and excited to have another piece of the puzzle in place. My documents arrived safely in Atlanta today for translation into Russian. This should take about 10 days. After that, they'll be returned for me to copy and send everything off to the Consulate in DC! (I hopefully won't have to see them again after this unless they expire).
Side note: I was feeling a little 'whoa is me' with all the frustration and hard work over the last 2 weeks. Then, my friend, Kelly had a baby girl yesterday. I decided I'd rather be pleading with the Secretary of State over paperwork then having contractions and it made me feel a little better:).
Saturday, February 23, 2008
Oh the details...
Well yesterday I woke up at 5am to drive to Raleigh to get my dossier apostilled. So exciting.
I got there about 8:30 only to find out I had to turn around and drive back home because my notary didn't use the 'official international stamp'. I hadn't heard anything about this so it was really frustrating.
Anyone adopting reading this... Check with your state apostille on the exact wording you need!!!
I had to run around yesterday redoing about half my dossier. On Monday I'll make the trip to Raleigh again but this time hopefully with more success. I can't wait to get this in the mail.
I got there about 8:30 only to find out I had to turn around and drive back home because my notary didn't use the 'official international stamp'. I hadn't heard anything about this so it was really frustrating.
Anyone adopting reading this... Check with your state apostille on the exact wording you need!!!
I had to run around yesterday redoing about half my dossier. On Monday I'll make the trip to Raleigh again but this time hopefully with more success. I can't wait to get this in the mail.
Sunday, February 17, 2008
Up and Down
Well I talked with my agency contact on Friday and she said that Letters of Invitation (to travel) have been coming 60-150 days after the dossier arrives in Kazakhstan. That was exciting.
Then I went online and read a bunch of blogs about how the wait time in Kazakhstan has reportedly been close to 24 months for some families due to the long delay in China (over 2 years) and the fact that Guatemala is now closed to International adoptions.
I can not imagine the strength it will take if this takes 2 years from this point. I'm trying not to think about it and have faith. It's out of my hands. Hopefully... once the dossier arrives in about 2 months we'll get more clarity on how long the actual wait really is.
Then I went online and read a bunch of blogs about how the wait time in Kazakhstan has reportedly been close to 24 months for some families due to the long delay in China (over 2 years) and the fact that Guatemala is now closed to International adoptions.
I can not imagine the strength it will take if this takes 2 years from this point. I'm trying not to think about it and have faith. It's out of my hands. Hopefully... once the dossier arrives in about 2 months we'll get more clarity on how long the actual wait really is.
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
BIG DAY
So, we received our USCIS approval today (I - 171H)... It's fantastic.
So... the next steps are...
Friday - final notarization of documents
Saturday - Mail all docs off to my agency for review
Next week - Receive approval from my agency. Send all docs to be authenticated in Raleigh.
Then, I send down to Atlanta for Translation into Russian which may take about a month.
After that, off to the Kazakhstan Consulate in DC... then... off to Kazakhstan. My target date to have my Dossier arrive in Kazakhstan is around the end of April.
Kazakhstan Timeline:
10.8.07 - Sent Application
12.10.07 - Homestudy Approval
1.3.08 - Fingerprints Complete
2.13.08 - USCIS APPROVAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
4.30.08 - Target date dossier arrives in Kazakhstan
So... the next steps are...
Friday - final notarization of documents
Saturday - Mail all docs off to my agency for review
Next week - Receive approval from my agency. Send all docs to be authenticated in Raleigh.
Then, I send down to Atlanta for Translation into Russian which may take about a month.
After that, off to the Kazakhstan Consulate in DC... then... off to Kazakhstan. My target date to have my Dossier arrive in Kazakhstan is around the end of April.
Kazakhstan Timeline:
10.8.07 - Sent Application
12.10.07 - Homestudy Approval
1.3.08 - Fingerprints Complete
2.13.08 - USCIS APPROVAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
4.30.08 - Target date dossier arrives in Kazakhstan
Monday, February 4, 2008
Russian
So I ordered a 'How to speak Russian' CD today. I really don't want to spend 3 weeks in Kazakhstan and have no ability to communicate whatsoever. I think my poor ability to communicate with the Hispanic workers at my job showed me just how frustrating it would be...
We'll see how it goes.
So... USCIS updated their website. I think we might have approval late February on our 1-600A. I'm trying not to think about it too much but I'm super excited to finally get everything shipped off.
Other than that, nothing much new... just waiting:)
We'll see how it goes.
So... USCIS updated their website. I think we might have approval late February on our 1-600A. I'm trying not to think about it too much but I'm super excited to finally get everything shipped off.
Other than that, nothing much new... just waiting:)
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Why Blog...
So I figured I jump on the bandwagon of anxious folks finding something to poor their efforts into so they can take their mind off the 'adoption wait'.
My husband and I decided to adopt in early October 2007. Kazakhstan here we come!
Ever since dating in college we've felt a strong call to adoption and I feel confident this is what the Lord had planned all along for us. This will be our first child and we are excited, and like most, a little intimidated.
We are open to either a boy or a girl... but I think Chris is hoping for a boy. Either way it'll be amazing.
We sent in our 1600A October 15th and are still waiting for our USCIS approval. I can't believe how long everything takes. I guess it's good. It's like someone gives you the most amazing present ever but you have to stare at it for a year without opening it in anticipation. When I finally get to tear through that wrapping paper... it will be like no Christmas ever before.
Pray that we can be patient. It's not one of my virtues.
My husband and I decided to adopt in early October 2007. Kazakhstan here we come!
Ever since dating in college we've felt a strong call to adoption and I feel confident this is what the Lord had planned all along for us. This will be our first child and we are excited, and like most, a little intimidated.
We are open to either a boy or a girl... but I think Chris is hoping for a boy. Either way it'll be amazing.
We sent in our 1600A October 15th and are still waiting for our USCIS approval. I can't believe how long everything takes. I guess it's good. It's like someone gives you the most amazing present ever but you have to stare at it for a year without opening it in anticipation. When I finally get to tear through that wrapping paper... it will be like no Christmas ever before.
Pray that we can be patient. It's not one of my virtues.
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